I don’t know how long I hated you, how long I wanted to destroy you like you destroyed me.
But I’m finally done with this, I’m finally done with you.
So I take this opportunity to thank you. Thank you for being the hardest lesson I have ever learned.
Thank you for treating me like you did. Thank you for never supporting me, for making me think that I was not enough.
Because, you see, now I know what I’m worth.
Now I know that I deserve to be loved, and appreciated. I deserve someone who will be with me for the rest of his life, just because he wants to. I deserve someone who will see me as I am and still love me.
It had taken me two years with you to realize that I was perfect as I am.
That I don’t have to change for anyone.
Thanks for not loving me. The hardest thing I have ever done was beg you to love me.
I tried so hard to be perfect for you, I tried so hard to be something I was not, hoping that you might like me then.
If I try a little harder, maybe I’ll be enough for you.
But I never was. And when you left, I no longer knew who I was. So thank you for tearing me apart, because I had the chance to rebuild myself again.
I had the chance to love each of these pieces and put them back together as I wanted.
Thanks for cheating on me. More than one time. Because now I know that being insufficient was never my fault.
Now I know you never really cared about me, you just cared about being with someone to boost your ego.
And you know what is the saddest thing? The fact that I was ready to boost your ego for life, I was ready to forgive you for having cheated on me.
Now I can do better.
Now I know what great love looks like, I know what engagement looks like.
Now I know that we only had a one-sided relationship.
Thank you for leaving me when I needed you the most. Because now I know how to take care of myself.
Now I know how to love myself like you never knew. Now I know it was you who was unable to love and not me a difficult girl to love.
So thank you for leaving me, because it saved my life.
It gave me a new chance to live.
It gave me a new start with a new “me”, even better and even stronger. Me who loves me and who does not need a man to feel loved.
Thanks for leaving me, because I can finally look back and see how much I have changed.
To see this broken little girl become this amazing and fierce woman.
A woman who is no longer ashamed to stay in a toxic relationship. A woman who no longer blames herself for giving you everything she had.
Because now I know it wasn’t my fault.
Now I know you were a lesson that I needed to learn to know how to love myself, to see what real love is.
What we had was not love. It was just another toxic love story, but this time, a happy ending.
You see, you may have broken me, but I’m still standing.
I’m still breathing and my heart is beating. I still love, but this time, I love myself.