All you did was play with her. All you did was play “I’m running from you, you’re chasing me” with her.
This endless game that tires everyone in the long run except you. The only problem is that you forced a girl who didn’t want to be in your game to participate.
She only wanted you, but it was impossible to have you without all the luggage you carried with you.
She did not enter this “relationship” or whatever name you give her now, so that you can project your insecurities on her.
She didn’t jump into this merry-go-round so you could keep her just close enough to know you exist, but just far enough so she never got too close to you either.
Whenever you saw things getting serious, you went backwards.