I don’t need a partner who is trying to fill in the spaces that exist in my soul.
There comes a time when we need to release all the preconceptions about love and try to make up our own mind. But, I guess the difference is when that happens, we still might not know what it means except that we will have a lot of adventures.
I now understand that I have been traveling this path for quite some time, even before I was married I was on this journey to become everything I was from the moment I tasted the air of a sunrise of misty sun in the dying moments of dawn, the moment I ceased to be someone else.
Maybe there are those who are born who are not supposed to belong to anyone. We are free, with our wings hidden under the guise of adolescence, and through time we begin to realize that we do not match.
Maybe there are only those that do not need to be completed.
I don’t need to forget who I am just so I can remember who you are; I don’t have to be bored to make you feel better in your own shadow.
There is actually no need for it, but that does not mean that there is no desire, or even hope.
The truth is, I have no idea what I’m doing. Seems ironic to me since I guess I’m always making plans and dreaming bigger than my hands can, but that doesn’t mean I know where it will all lead.
I have a feeling in my soul that I am on the right direction even though it is nothing like what I thought, but this intuition and the certainty of what I am doing are two different things.
I guess there was a point where I laughed at the monotony and expectations, but to be honest, the more I thought I knew the less I knew, so this time I’m saying I don’t know anything.
Which is perhaps an uncertain reality as I know the way the sea moves against my skin in the turquoise winds. I know what it feels like to be inspired, to be in touch with the universe, and to know that I am fulfilling my purpose.
But what else? I have no idea, but I follow my heart even though I have no idea what he’s thinking, or where to go.
I need a partner to inspire me, to push me, to have the shelter that I seek, and the Love that holds me back but that does not mean that he has to fill my empty parts or fix anything. either at home.
My heart is a hologram of what you put in it, whatever you feel is what grew the seeds you planted yourself, whether they are blooming, or just starting to come through the fertile soil hoping the garden is filled or wild. The truth is, this is exactly how it should be.
I am exactly as I am supposed to be.
We will change each other, we will inspire each other’s growth, but that doesn’t mean I’m missing something. In fact, it’s only because I’m overjoyed that I can give you anything.
