I needed you to take me in your arms and tell me that everything will be fine.
I needed you to love me because I didn’t know how to love myself.
I needed you to be there, to make me feel safe. You are the one who will make me stay.
I needed you to kiss me, make love to me. I needed you, even when I said the opposite. I just needed you. Only from you.
Instead, I pushed you away. I was afraid of your love. I was afraid I couldn’t make you happy. I was afraid of what you meant to me.
You knew me better than anyone. You knew all my fears, my strengths and my faults. And yet you loved me, even more, every day. You knew I might run away. You knew it. But you stayed.
When I pushed you away, you brought me even closer. When I hated myself, you loved me enough for both of you. When I fell asleep crying, you wiped my tears away.
When my world collapsed, you helped me rebuild a new one. So how can I leave?
Being with you was a challenge every day. Being with you meant facing my deepest fears and my darkest memories. Being with you meant letting someone in after so long. How can I leave?
You made me what I am today. You learned to defend me. You taught me that it wasn’t always my fault. You taught me to laugh at my mistakes. You helped me by being yourself.
For the first time, falling in love was a great feeling. For the first time, crying in front of someone did me good.
For the first time in life, opening my feelings to someone did me good. How can I leave?
Now all I want is for you to know that I will never leave.
I love you and I love to need you.
I like how I smile when I look at you. I love how my heart jumps every time I see you, like the very first time I laid my eyes on you.
I need your smiles, our home and our chaotic mornings. I need to sing and cook together. I need your hands around my waist and mine in your hair.
I need the way you need me.
